Sunday, November 29, 2009

Holdin' On

As sung by Carmen

They said I'd never make it
They said I would not last a day
They said when things got heated up
I would get blown away

But I'm still here Lord
Still strong, and I'm still

Holdin' on (every day), holdin' on (everyway)
Holdin' on (every minute), Holdin' on (I'm still in it)
I got strength to stand
I'm holdin' on to God's unchangin' hand

They said I was too fragile
That livin' right was just a dream
They said I didn't have the stuff
To try and swim up stream

But I'm still here Lord
Still strong, and I'm still

Holdin' on (through the fire), holdin' on (I'm goin' higher)
Holdin' on (through the flood), Holdin' on (through the blood)
I got strength to stand
I'm holdin' on to God's unchangin' hand

Through the darkness, and through the night
I walk by faith and not by sight

Because I'm hangin' on to God's Word
Holdin' on for what I've heard
Thinkin' through the mind of Christ
Walkin' in the way that's right

His promises are true, His love is everlasting
His power is available only for the asking
When you sow the Word, faith is what you reap
You can be rough, tough, hard to bluff, if you keep

Holdin' on (every day), holdin' on (everyway)
Holdin' on (every minute), Holdin' on (I'm still in it)
I got strength to stand
I'm holdin' on to God's unchangin' hand
I got strength to stand
I'm holdin' on to God's unchangin' hand

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

When I was about 7 years old my mother bought me a record player and a few 45's to play on it. One of the first 45's I ever got was "Raindrops Keep Fallin' On My Head." I played and sang it over and over until I developed another favorite- "Judge You're Going Funky" by the Purple Haze (I think).

At any rate, I remembered that I had this song on a CD in my truck. I had just gotten my truck back after a month of no transportation and I popped the CD in. It seemed to me that B.J. Thomas was speaking to me. I've had a lot of troubles but I'm still at peace. So, I adopted this song as my theme song.

Then I made my trip to Lawrenceburg where my mother is in assisted living to drop off supplies and to fill her medicine chest. And the truck broke down. I called a Chevrolet dealership since I was out of town and had no clue what tow truck or mechanic I should call. The dealership is taking care of my truck and I've got a loaner until I can get the truck fixed. Whew!

I went ahead and bought groceries when I got back into town because I had been putting it off due to not knowing about other bills. It seems to me that I need to take care of basic needs first today- groceries, laundry, etc. The rest will have to wait.

At any rate I'm going to try to stay in the serenity zone and not let these "raindrops" get to me. It's a little difficult but if I stay busy with other things I believe I'll be okay.

One of today's project is getting together all my teaching materials to be donated. I've got 5 boxes to give the church, 2 boxes for Darcy's grandchildren and 3 boxes to give to Sherry for use in her classroom. I've found the items. I'm just boxing them up and bagging them a little more orderly. It felt good to have that to do.

My other project is, of course, my World War II manuscript and laundry. Can't get into the laundry room right now everything is occupied. All good things to those who wait as they say. It will be done and if it isn't...well, I still have clean clothes to wear. It will eventually get done.

Raindrops Keep Fallin' On My Head

As sung by B. J. Thomas

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

But there's one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

[trumpet]

It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

Thursday, November 05, 2009

Ever since the Al-Anon meeting on Monday I've had this song going through my head. We're doing the Tradition Study for Healthy Relationships by Mary Pearl and there was a question about what we do when we feel vulnerable. I said I run. Fear of rejection keeps me from telling others how I really feel.

Hopefully I'll exorcise some more demons when I tell my story on Saturday in Childersburg. My truck is being held hostage by Larry Gibson until I pay off my balance. So, Norm is picking me up tomorrow morning and handing me over to Linda. I really don't know how I will get home. I've got the phone numbers from two Al-Anons here. Hopefully, one of them will come through for me.

The check from my 401K came in today but it has to sit in the bank for 5 business days before I can touch any of it. So, I will not be able to get my truck back until Thursday of next week at the earliest.

Go the inside scoop on a Case Manager job with Centerstone. Sent my resume. Hope to at least get an interview out of it.

Run Runaway

As sung by Slade

Hold on!

I like black and white (dreaming of black and white)
You like black and white
Run run away

CHORUS

See chameleon Lying there in the sun
All things to everyone
Run run away

If you're in the swing (money ain't everything)
If you're in the swing
Run run away

CHORUS

If you gotta crush (don't beat about the bush)
When I gotta crush
Run run away

CHORUS

Oh now can't you wait (love don't come on a plate)
Oh now can't you wait
Run run away

See there chameleon
Lying there in the sun
All things to everyone
Run run away

Run run away
Run run away
Run run away