I guess the word of the day is "change". It seems to be the topic jumping out at me. What can I change? It's not about "who" I can change because I realize that the only person I can change is me. It's about what I can change about me or my situation to make it better. Sometimes it feels like I can't do enough, like my best isn't good enough.

This morning I am thinking about my new job. I've spent my own money to get materials in that room rather than buy groceries or put some back for gas. Will anyone care? No. I will still feel as if I am not doing enough. It's not that I want to openly criticize the previous teacher but I wonder what he did without materials. Surely he didn't just hand them worksheets.

I am in extreme physical pain this morning. The lifting is getting to my back again. But I've got aches and pains due to going from air conditioning to heat, as well. I'll be glad when Fall actually arrives. Maybe my aches and pains will actually go away.

I've got some financial decisions to make. I was with the bankruptcy lawyer yesterday. Hopefully that will get back on track soon and be taken care of. That only leaves the IRS and Gibson Brothers for me to take care of. Only. Who am I kidding? I sometimes fear that I will ever get back on track. As Linda pointed out the weekend in Huntsville was clearly not in my budget but I needed it for my emotional and mental well being. I needed to be in the company of someone who had no expectations or demands of me. I was able to just be me.