I feel like I'm being left behind. It feel like everyone is moving forward but me. I can't seem to get a handle on what I'm experiencing but I know that it isn't good.

Tonight a thought came to me that I didn't like and I tried to dismiss it but it continued to eat at me. It's none of my business. I should leave it alone but I can see something coming down the pike for two male acquaintances of mine. Nothing good can come from this. They tried it before and it didn't work. It won't work this time either because it is for all the wrong reasons. Like I said it's not my business.

I received a letter from my ex today. I don't want to go back into anything with him. But I've got to say that right now he's the one male I understand. He's being nice to me and I know that nothing good can come from this either but I'm so lonely and it sure feels good to hear that a he cares even if it's a lie.