Crawl Before You Walk

As sung by Eternity X

The smoky mist it hovered over the distant echoes
Of your voice flow through my soul
The wind blows silent like a mystery
Standing on a mountain top within my dream
They comfort me

And I don't know how I'm supposed to feel
None of this makes any sense at all to me
Lullabies sung by a distant memory,
Seems to hold me when I'm down
In this world of quiet sadness
Golden chalices filled with madness they come for me
Broken hearts lie all around me
A flowing pastel red upon the ground in the place I'm in

I gazed up into the night sky
Shivering cold from a brave man's destiny
As I opened up my eyes a strange light
Seemed to shine all over me

I heard this voice from nowhere surrounding
All that wasn't there
Confirming all believing it was the time it said
You have to:

Crawl, crawl before you walk, walk before you run, run before you die
You have to feel, feel before you hurt, hurt before you learn, learn before
You try

I feel like a wheel turning, turning on midnight - distorted - faces
I feel like a wheel lights up my eyes, happiness befalls me in some peculiar
Way
I feel like a wheel turning, turning on midnight

Chorus
You have to:
Crawl, crawl before you walk,
Walk before you run,
Run before you die
You have to feel, feel before you hurt,
Hurt before you learn, learn before you try

Now the mist was clearing I could see
The stars that lit the sky
I waited silent calls for a voice,
A vision I could not find
Never heard but I wasn't jaded
And that voice of reason never left my mind

Chorus

Oh no it's looking right at us
But you don't have to like this


This morning God reminded me that I need to learn to crawl before I can walk. I had made up my mind to try something for my own good that I had been putting off. I forgot about prerequisite skills. I don't have any. Got to work on that. Went looking for a song to fit how I was feeling and found one by a group I've never heard of- Eternity X.

All I can hear in my head is "you've got to crawl before you can walk." And the slogans- "Keep it Simple", "Easy Does It", "First Things First." I've got to build up momentum, strength to do something I need to do, have to do, don't really want to do. I can almost hear God laughing at my plans. But most likely He felt sorry for me as I tried to do something that I obviously can't do. I think that's why I got the message this morning.

Oh, well. You live and you learn. I'm not going to give up on this. I think it's something I need to do. I just need a partner to help me along, to jump start me. I'm tired of doing things alone.

I'm gathering information about two different surgeries. Linda is giving me pointers on how to choose between them and how to get one of them approved by my insurance. I think my quality of life would improve if I could get one approved. I'm not going to tell anyone about what I'm going to do until one of these options would be approved.