Friday, October 26, 2007

Give Me One Reason

As sung by Tracy Chapman

Give me one reason to stay here and I'll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here and I'll turn right back around
Because I don't want leave you lonely
But you got to make me change my mind
Baby, I got your number and I know that you got mine
But you know that I called you I called too many times
You can call me, baby, you can call me anytime
But you got to call me

Give me one reason to stay here - and I'll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here - and I'll turn right back around
Because I don't want leave you lonely
But you got to make me change my mind

I don't want no one to squeeze me - they might take away my life
I don't want no one to squeeze me - they might take away my life
I just want someone to hold me and rock me through the night

This youthful heart can love you and give you what you need
This youthful heart can love you and give you what you need
But I'm too old to go chasing you around
Wasting my precious energy

Give me one reason to stay here - and I'll turn right back around
Give me one reason to stay here - and I'll turn right back around
Because I don't want leave you lonely
But you got to make me change my mind

Baby, just give me one reason - Give me just one reason why
Baby, just give me one reason - Give me just one reason why I should stay
Because I told you that I loved you
And there ain't no more to say




Today's thought from Hazelden is:

Recovery is civil war, but it is a war that can be won.
--Sister Imelda

How often do we hear people say, "Sure, I know it's the right thing to do - but it's easier said than done!'' But "it," whatever "it" is for each of us, is actually easier done than not done. As hard as it is to turn our will and our behavior toward recovery, failing to recover is much harder. Ultimately, any price we pay for recovery is far less than the cost of giving up everything we've gained.

Some of us have a very difficult time making phone calls. Others are scared to death of speaking at meetings, talking to strangers, or admitting that we have feelings. But the alternative has simply been too painful. Whatever we have to do is worth it. The payoff is immense. How many of us, when we did attend that meeting that frightened us, felt an enormous surge of self-confidence and happiness? How often, when we have stood our ground and found it did not kill us, have we felt that we could lick the world? The payoff is that we learn to like ourselves more, and that is as good as it gets.

I will make sure today that I am not forgetting the benefits of recovery and only considering the price of recovery.


Fear rules our lives a lot of the time. I know it certainly has ruled mine. I'm afraid of change, even good change, but it's worth the risk. Sometimes I've taken the risk only to discover that the other person is more afraid than I am. All I can say is that I've done my part. Now it's time for him to do his. I'm not chasing anyone. I will stay still and wait to see what happens. No more e-mails. No more asking about them. No more. I am here if he wants to talk.

My dreams are telling me a lot of weird stuff about this person lately. I'm not so sure I like what I'm seeing. It appears that there is a lot of deception going on. I hate being lied to. My ex was big on leading me down false paths and leaving me hanging. I won't go through that again. Honesty is a good mantra to have. But first it's more important to be honest with self before engaging in a relationship with someone else. Cards on the table. Ask me how I know.

Sometimes recovery means stepping out into the unknown on faith. It is doing it without considering the cost. It is scary to risk the unknown but it has paid off for me time and time again.

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