It is only with the heart that one can see rightly....
--Antoine de Saint Exupery

If we look at the world through suspicious or angry eyes, we'll find a world that mirrors our expectations - a world where tension will mount, arguments will abound, strife will be present where none need be. However, our experiences in some manner bless us, and we'll recognize that if we'll look upon them with gratitude. Everything in our path is meant for our good and we'll see the good when our hearts act as the eyes for our minds.

When we see with our hearts, our responses to the turmoil around us, the fighting children, the traffic snarls, the angry lovers, will be soft acceptance. When our hearts guide the action we can accept those things we cannot change, and change those we can. And the heart, as the seat of all wisdom, will always know the difference.
From Worthy of Love by Karen Casey

There's a lot of truth in this. When I approach situations from the stand point of being different from everyone else, labeling myself, I separate myself from the source. I perceive myself to be less than every one else. When I approach situations from the stand point of unity- that we are created in God's image and thus have God in us- I remember that I am no different than anyone else. When I focus only on my differences I alienate myself from others. Sometimes I have a hard time with this concept. If I'm out of my comfort zone I struggle. It's what Kenny calls an AFGO- Another F----ing Growth Opportunity.

My truck is making a new sound. I have no idea where this one originates from. I know that I need new brakes. The squeaking tells me this. I know I need the front end aligned- the wobbling and weird noise I hear from that tells me this. I know I need new tires because they are bubbling (whatever) because of another sound I can hear. I do not have the money to fix all of these things. Once again I've got to consider just turning this truck back in and using the bike to get from point A to point B. But it will knock me out of going to a few events next month, like maybe the Al-Anon assembly that I wasn't too keen on going to any way and perhaps, Marian and Tom's 50th anniversary. Unless I could get a lift from Susan E. I will not be able to attend. But maybe someone would come get me. Doubtful. I'm not all that important. I could just get them a nice anniversary gift and send it through someone else. I've got a few weeks to worry about that. Not going to worry about it right now. I've got other fish to fry.

Going to Sylacagua, AL this weekend. At least I hope I make it there. Linda is going to help me get a flyer put together advertising my genealogy research as a possible source of income. She's also going to help me come up with a game plan for these bills that I'm getting further and further behind on. I'm so glad that she and I are friends. I need some help. Not many are willing to help me with anything.

This song came on the radio this morning as I was going to work. It spoke to me and so I will put it in my "What is Love?" journal that I've been working on and I place it here.

I Can't Make You Love Me

As sung by Bonnie Raitt

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't