I am so, so glad that fall break is just days away. I can't believe it's already here but I think I'm in need of it. I'll still be working. This will give me a chance to get caught up on some of my paperwork.

I had a weird dream last night. I woke up at one point to go to the bathroom and remembered part of it. I saw so vividly a person that I've struggled with. I asked God to take away those feelings and thoughts. I don't want to be angry or aggitated any more. Now I wonder if I'm not being told that things were left unresolved. But how can you resolve something when the other person keeps side stepping the issues? It was why I got out of all that to begin with. It was making me crazy. But like a moth drawn to a flame I still reach out to him some times because he is someone who seems to understand what makes me tick. I hate that.

I went to a meeting in Lawrenceburg last night. I had straddled the fence about going so I prayed for God to give me a sign if it was the right thing to do. A friend called me out of the blue and asked me if I was going to a meeting. I said, "Well, I guess I am now." It was okay. I don't know what others got out of it but I realized that I had turned over several new leafs. Jane's opinion of me just didn't matter any more. In fact, I really could care less what anyone thinks of me right now. I'd said as much to Linda when she called prior to the meeting. She said, "Damn, those 'go to hell pills' you're taking sure work wonders!" Yes, antidepressants work wonders but I think it's more than that. I really think I've moved beyond caring.

Xena! I've found her again. The show comes on at 6:00 on the Oxygen channel before I go to work. How is that for starting the day? Almost need a warrior attitude when I go into work to tackle my child with multiple personalities. He fluctuates on me. One minute I'm the best thing since Sponge Bob Squarepants, the next thing I know I'm "the bitch." Go figure. At least I haven't had to restrain him any more.

A lot of sickness in my room. I sent home two today before 11:00. One will be out for a while. The other will probably be back tomorrow bright and early. Just two days to go until fall break. I can do this.