Yesterday was a day filled with surprises.

I didn't do much until the evening. At that time I went to my Al-Anon meeting on fumes. The truck barely made it there. I walked into the meeting room to find that Mac had left my speaker CDs that he borrowed nearly a year ago from me along with those of Lois that he had borrowed on the table. I'm not sure why he's suddenly returning belongings to people or if it is just mine. There was something about the incident that made me think that he is saying, "Good bye and good riddance." I haven't done anything to him. In this scenerio all I did was get depressed. I was paranoid and spoke to him of it. I was suicidal and spoke to him of it. Those are my issues, not his. But apparently he can't be friends with someone who isn't bubbly and uplifting all the time. Well, I'm sorry. I can't fake happiness 24/7.

We had a guest speaker. Paddy A. from Smyrna came to speak. She brought her husband and another Al-Anon member with her. My former sponsor came, having gotten a ride over with Elaine S. She surprised me by slipping money into my pocket for gas to get me to Columbia and back. I was under the impression that she hated me and would rather walk across hot coals than to assist me in any way. I was definitely shocked. She told me as we were leaving to go get gas or a stiff drink or both! I had to laugh. I don't drink but I could have used one last night. I didn't see how I was going to make it to Columbia. And I desperately needed to get there to run my errands. I needed the closure on that old classroom.

Well, I received my paycheck from Impact today and it's already gone. I spent the majority of it getting caught up on rent. I put the remainder of it on my electric bill. I still owe roughly $72. I have until next Friday to pay it. Don't know where I will get it. But I've put that in God's hands. I've done all that I can do.

I was called yesterday about a free movie rental. While I was out running my errands- I went to see my new classroom- I went by Movie Gallery and picked out a movie. I prayed that God would guide me to one. I saw many that had titles that spoke to me. Some I'd already seen. I wanted one I had not seen already. I finally decided on The Divinci Code. Haven't seen it but I've heard a lot about it over the last year or so. Maybe it has a God message for me.

My on-line sponsee finally got back to me. She doesn't seem offended by what I sent her. I'm glad. We'll see what happens.

I'm a little tired. I think I may go and take a nap.

Well, I had my nap and I feel better.

I haven't watched my movie yet. I think I'm going to save it for tomorrow night. I really would rather be watching the newest Harry Potter movie but beggars can't be choosers.

I watched Anne of Green Gables this afternoon. I have the videos. As much as I'd like to think that I am Pollyanna, I have to say I resemble Anne more. Or maybe I am a cross between the two characters. When I finished watching it I thought of another character. When I was younger I read a lot of Grace Livingston Hill's books. She had one called Job's Niece. I always thought I was most like her. My most frequent saying in those days was, and probably should still be, "Everything happens to me." But that would be such a self-pitying attitude.

There are people who have far worse troubles than I. For example, Lois just called. She's had a pretty bad day. She's sitting outside her job with a flat tire. It sounded as if she'd been crying. I offered to go get her. I've got about a quarter of a tank. But she's called the police. They are sending a wrecker. Bless her heart. She feels about as low as I have the past few weeks.