Gratitude list for today:

A- Alley, my neurotic cat
B- Becky the chatterbox at the workshop
C- Cocoa, the calm cat
D- Decisions, it signifies that I have options
E- E-mail
F- Friends, fireworks
G- God
H- Health
I- Internet, interviews
J- Job, Jane
K- Kittens
L- Linda (there are two of them now), Lois
M- Marian, Mom, music, movies
N- Notebooks used for journaling
O- Olives
P- Perpetual calendars, Paddy A., picnics
Q- Quilts
R- Rena, Radio
S- Serenity, Silence
T- Trips
U- Understanding
V- Vicki
W- Water
X- Xena, may I find her today
Y- Yolanda
Z- ZZZZZZZZZZ glorious sleep


Song for today

My Wish

As sung by Rascal Flatts

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

More then anything, more then anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more then you take.

Oh More then anything, Yeah, and more then anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.


Oh, how I wish the same things for myself. I'm extremely tired. I don't know what I want and even less of what I need.

I really want to get this summer over and done with.
I want a solid job offer here in the county.
I want this job at Impact to finally yield a check.
I want the caseworkers for my mother and brother to show some signs of progress.
I want to be able to pay all of my bills.
I want to finally be rid of the black truck.
I want someone to spend time with. I'm lonely. I don't want to entertain anyone. I want to be content just being in their presense and feeling loved. I'm tired of the games that people play to get ahead. I've really heard a lot of that going on in the Impact Center. Oh, my goodness, the back biting and nit picking that I hear. It's enough to make me want to throw up.
But more than anything, I think I want to speak to Joey again. Only he would understand how I feel about Mom and Barry right now because he is a part of what happened. I don't want to heap coals on his head or share blame. I want to hear that he has put his life back together somewhat so that all that happened was not done in vain.

I don't know about me and this A Course in Miracles (ACIM) mentor. We are not in synch with each other at all. I understand Marianne Williamson's interpretation a whole lot better. I understand that things have meaning only because I give them meaning. I also understand that my perception of how things are is based on what my feelings are at any particular time. I also have an understanding of God. Perhaps my understanding is far different than hers. Is it not possible that God can be different things to different people? Therefore, I choose not to take anything the ACIM mentor says personally. I can "take what I like and leave the rest". Now, that shows signs of a program.