Today's reading from Hazelden and the one on my perpetual calendar have to do with change. Hey, I'm not against change. It's scary but it's necessary in order for growth to occur. I feel like I've changed a lot and my life situation has changed as well.

The reading from the Advent meditation book is about learning to pray. I just drove through a down pour of rain in the dark and could not see. I was reciting the rosary all the way home. Teach me to pray? I think I'm still learning the proper way.

I'm a bit confused and in a lot of physical pain today. I'm not sure if I'm coming down with something or if this is my arthritis acting up. I just know I hurt. And I'm a bit depressed. I can't take care of things for Mom and Barry. Mom's pretty well settled but Barry's like a leach sucking the life out of me. I just want to feel like I matter to someone these days for something besides solving problems.

I guess this song sums up how I'm feeling today.


I Wanna Be Somebody’s Baby

As sung by Barry Manilow

I want to be somebody’s baby
I don’t want a child of my own
I was the one who was always strong
And I was always the one left alone
I was the one understanding
And letting the other go free
Now I want to be somebody’s baby
Let somebody worry ‘bout me

No, no, no more a shoulder to cry on
My shoulders are wet to the bone
No, no, no a more a friend to rely on
I’m lookin’ for friends of my own
No more a kindly advisor
And no more a worshipping fan
I’m younger and weaker and wiser
With a brand new strategy planned

I wanna be somebody’s baby
I don’t want a child of my own
I was the one who was always strong
And I was always the one left alone
I was the one understanding
And lettin’ the other go free
Right now I want to be somebody’s baby
Let somebody worry ‘bout me

I want to be mothered
And fathered
And sistered
And brothered
Its gonna be gruesome and grand
I swear I’ll keep you worried
And sweatin’
And busy
And bothered
You’ll run around wringing your hand
I’ll call you at three in the mornin’
Wailin’ my woes to the sky
I’ll slip out of sight without warnin’
And return with a gleam in my eye

I wanna be somebody’s baby
I don’t want a child of my own
I was the one who was always strong
And I was always the one left alone
I was the one understanding
And lettin’ the other go free
Right now
I wanna be somebody’s baby
Let somebody worry ‘bout me

I wanna be somebody’s baby
I wanna,I wanna,I wanna,I wanna yeaaaaaaaa
Keep my bed warm
Make me a home
I wanna be somebody’s baby