I had a therapy session today with Melanie. We got to the root of some of what I've been feeling. I've got a lot of repressed anger that is causing me to be depressed. She's given me homework to work on. We also went through a series scenerios where she presented with feelings and asked me to identify people, places and things that cause them.

I discovered that I feel most unsafe when I am in the recovery community. When I attended meetings at the Betterway House I was often blind sided by AA, NA or Al-Anon members who were having a bad day and decided that I should be the scape goat. I feel unsafe because of a previous sponsor who decided that I was public enemy number one and repeated everything I ever said to her.

I discovered that I dislike certain people because I feel stupid and ugly in their presense.

I discovered the place I feel the most secure is the church I attend.

I relived some things from my childhood as we spoke but I feel better.