Sunday, November 30th, will be my Al-Anon birthday. I'll have been in Al-Anon for five years. Yeah, I know, to many people it isn't a big deal. But for me it means alot. I learned a whole new way of doing things, of living. I learned how to say, "No." I'm still working on the whole not feeling guilty part. It takes time.

I've used my program a lot this weekend with Mom and Barry. I feel like I'm their parent and I'm having to say, "No" to the things they want. We just don't have the money. Both of them are in the whole with spending as their payee tries to straighten out their finances and I have no money left.

Mom went to the doctor today. I think we've put an end to all of her worries over heart trouble and low blood sugar.

Barry's a different story. He relies on me too much. I feel smothered.