Today's thought from Hazelden is:

Help is available - we don't have to go it alone.

Together we can do it - we can recover. Disorders are habits of loneliness and isolation. To get well we need help, and that help is always available.

Those of us who belong to a Twelve Step support group have a list of phone numbers. We know we can call people who will be there for us. We go to meetings and share. We find that other people have similar problems, and we stop feeling lonely and isolated.

Some of us are in therapy, some of us have strong family support systems, and some of us have friends and colleagues we can talk to when the going gets rough.

We can get help through our spiritual center. We may define it in various ways, but when we become aware of this center, we have an ever-present source of support.

I will spend some quiet time today paying attention to the help that comes from my spiritual center.
From the book: Inner Harvest

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I'm taking today off. I don't feel well - my sugar's off- and I really don't want to wrestle with Q today.

Last night I attended my home group. I tell you that it is a sin and a shame when I can honestly say I have more serenity when I stay at home than when I go to a meeting. It's down right pitiful. It's not the home group entirely. I just don't like attending meetings in that building any more. I'm grateful to have other support systems besides this meeting. I have phone meetings, an on-line Al-Anon group, therapy, and RCIA class.

Last night I acknowledged to Linda how hurt I still am about lost friendships. I've had to detach from some people I really cared about and set such rigid boundaries because I needed time to heal. I was getting sick again and I just can't go back to where I once was. I can't. But as Linda pointed out, those people were not really my friends if they left me when I needed them most.

Marian gave me a singing hamster for Christmas. The song it sings is "Since You've Been Gone." I've never heard this song before. So naturally I had to look up the lyrics on the internet. Alot of synchronicity in the lyrics for my life.

Since You've Been Gone

As Sung by Kelly Clarkson

Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone