"Make this moment last."

That's what my perpetual calendar says. I just wonder how to go about making a moment last. It seems to me that when I hold onto resentments I make moments of hurt feelings, misunderstanding and anger last and last. It's as if nothing good ever happened. So, how do I go about holding onto those moments where I had perfect serenity, or clarity about a situation, or love. How does one hold onto love? I think the key to making any moment last is to live it and let it go. But what do I know?

My boy Q had on new clothes today! I guess my phone call to DCS netted him some new threads. I was so happy for him. He had a better day today. He actually got through 3 rotations of basket work today. He rarely gets through with one. I didn't see any of his other personalities until the end of the day. I don't know what maked this one pop out but he was actually talking to another personality before he turned his attention to me.

His re-eval meeting is tomorrow. I'm still a little put off by a psychologist who won't retest him. I'm also put off by the special education supervisor who went to the psychiatric appointment without the child and has decided not to come to our meeting. I haven't heard from DCS. The aunt wrote down the date but I doubt that she will come either. The OT and the psychologist are the only parties who have queried me about the meeting. Go figure.

At any rate another professional- the COTA- commented that Q and I have an unusual bond. I'm not sure why this child has latched onto me. At one point in time I thought that I was having a repeat of the screaming meanie incident. I thought Malik was possessed, too. One of my gifts is being able to get inside the mind of a disable child to figure out how best to teach them skills. I never could get inside Malik's but I think I've found the key to Q. I've got to learn how to detach from him. I think about him and pray. Sometimes his face interrupts my sleep. That's when I pray.

Nothing new to add. I had wanted to take my sponsor out to eat for her birthday but the flat tire took all the money I had left. I just spent the last of my money- $6.50- doing my laundry. That's all the money there was left until December 15. I feel bad about not taking Marian to dinner but hopefully she isn't too upset with me. She's had company for almost a week now. She's probably grateful for the down time. Besides with seven children, I figure one of them cooked for her or took her out. Or at least I hope that they did.