Word from the perpetual calendar:

Serenity is nature's most beautiful gift to the heart.


Godspell was on TV today. I have seen it before but I didn't remember too much about it. I did remember one song because I learned it in Girl Scouts. When I hear it today and see the lyrics I see the way of the mystic. I have no idea where Fredric Nietzsche comes into play. I'll hae to look that up.

Day by Day

As found in Godspell


[FREDRIC NIETZSCHE]
Day by day
Day by day
Oh Dear Lord
Three things I pray
To see thee more clearly
Love thee more dearly
Follow thee more nearly
Day by day

[CHORUS]
Oh...

[FREDRIC NIETZSCHE]
Day by day
Day by day
Oh Dear Lord
Three things I pray
To see thee more clearly
Love thee more dearly
Follow thee more nearly
Day by day

[FREDRIC NIETZSCHE AND CHORUS]
Day by day
Day by day
Oh Dear Lord
Three things I pray
To see thee more clearly
Love thee more dearly
Follow thee more nearly
Day by day

Day by day
Day by day
Oh Dear Lord
Three things I pray
To see thee more clearly
Love thee more dearly
Follow thee more nearly
Day by day

Day by day
Day by day
Oh Dear Lord
Three things I pray
To see thee more clearly
Love thee more dearly
Follow thee more nearly
Day by day

Day by day
Day by day
Oh Dear Lord
Three things I pray
To see thee more clearly
Love thee more dearly
Follow thee more nearly
Day by day

Day by day by day by day...


Last night was confirmation in Fayetteville. I felt like I was in Wonderland again. I was very disconnected from myself. I guess I felt that way because no one had clued me in with what would take place. Marian and I were very confused.

The choir was wonderful. We both enjoyed the music and said we'd like to go back some time and just hear the choir.

I enjoyed my time with Marian. Sometimes talking to her makes me feel better even if there are things that I can't talk over with her. I guess those will fall to my therapist. We did talk about someone that we are concerned about- her son. She says that she does see him as relatively shy. Funny. He doesn't appear that way to me. But then I don't appear shy to people and I am at different times. I didn't tell her much about her son just that Linda had tried to be helpful and it had backfired. Mike's not talking to me now. I wish there was something I could say or do to fix that.

Marian and I also talked about dating. She's glad that I didn't jump into dating after my divorce. Once bitten, twice shy. I told her about Sam and explained that I really would like that to turn into a friendship. I'm not romantically inclined toward him. I don't know him well enough for that. She asked me about Mac. I still miss him but his mood swings were a little more than I could handle. I went through that with Joey. I told her that I liked her son and if he'd bend a little I could see us as very good friends. He keeps throwing up a wall. I sent two of the scrap booking pages that I did for him through her. He'll probably trash them. But I hope not.

I didn't go to mass today. Marian told me that I didn't have to as I had gone last night for a few hours. I felt kind of lost and guilty about not going. I was tired and achy but I felt that I should be at church. But instead I spent some quality time with my mother. I came back here and napped for 2 hours.