It is far better to have loved...
than most anything else you
could have done.

This is what my perpetual calendar says today. The Hazelden reading this morning was similar. It spoke about maturity and competing for love. I don't think I'm competing with anyone for love. I know that I am loved and I know that I am capable of loving. More important I love myself- that, to me, is maturity. Apparently someone thought otherwise. Mac sent me today's reading from Hazelden that I'd already received. I'm not sure what he is trying to tell me but it doesn't matter. I know the truth- I am loveable, capable of loving and loved. I choose not to take anything he aims at me personal any more. I figure if he's got something important to say he will get off his ass and pick up a telephone or come over here. I'm not going to allow him to take pot shots at me through the e-mail.

That said, let me tell you how weird today has gone. We got out early due to the weather. We're under a tornado watch. It really feels like we've got one heading this way. I did not go help with buses as I was attending to my own room. I am hoping that I did the right thing as I did the only thing I knew to do.

Thelma called a little while ago. I told her about the phone call from Lois, the
e-mail from Mac and the meeting I had with the deacon last night. We also talked about being evacuated from school because of the weather situation. It seems that they were also told to take cover. Any way, her take on Lois and Mac is that they miss me. Miss me? Each of them verbally abused me or tried to change me in some way. Hey, I may not be perfection personified but I'm okay just the way that I am. I am the fly (see the theme song for The Buzz on Maggie for a reference)!

And what do I know about love? Well, I know that when love is present it builds up and does not tear down. I know that love is liberating and not smothering. I know that love is accepting and not judgmental. I have not mastered complete unconditional love but I'm getting closer to it with a little help from my Higher Power and my friends.