The experience of love is a choice we make, a mental decision to see love as the only real purpose and value in any situation.
"God" means love, and "will" means thought. God's will, then, is loving thought. If God is the source of all good, then love in us is the source of all good. When we love, we are automatically placing ourselves within an attitudinal and behavioral context that leads to an unfoldment of events at the highest level of good for everyone involved.
A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles, p. 57.

The return to love is the great cosmic drama, the peaceful journey from pretence to self, from pain to inner peace.
A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles, p. 25.

I've been studying God for lack of a better explanation. It really began with exposure to the writings of Thomas Merton. In case you aren't familiar with Merton, he was a hermit monk who lived in Kentucky. The first of the Al-Anon daily readers, One Day at a Time in Al-Anon, has a few of his quotes in it. That's where my journey began.

Merton is considered one of the modern day mystics of the Catholic faith by many. His writings led me to the writings of other Christian mystics. The concept that one can become in synch with God was so phenomenal that I just had to pursue it. I have read a few of them. I take everything I read with a grain of thought. I pray about it and then I research where the ideas originate from. My Bible concordance has been getting a lot of use lately.

Along this line of thinking is to examine myself. I discovered last year that I'd been on an emotional drunk for quite some time. I was not just feeling my emotions. I was letting them rule me. For example, guilt is a very real emotion. I felt it, wallowed in it. I let it rule my every waking hour until I was so mired in self-pity that I could not find any way out. I became suicidal. When I finally surrendered to it and let it go it no longer had any power over me. The same is true of lonliness. When I allowed my feelings of being utterly alone to rule my head I was no longer content in my own company and I allowed myself to be sucked into very unhealthy relationships. I could not see where I ended and the other person began. When I can be content with my own company I am better able to accept others as they are and can practice autonomy.

When I look at myself through the eyes of love I see God in me. When I look at others through the eyes of love, I see God in them and I see myself.