Well, it was a night like no other. I went to my Al-Anon meeting and only one other person showed up. We went on with our group inventory, just the two of us. She asked me why no other people were showing up. I have no clue. This happens periodically. Attendance falls off. I've never seen it this bad though. I guess as long as two show up we can have a meeting. But we don't take in money for rent. Thankfully we have a prudent reserve built up. So, I think things will be okay. I still think we ought to move our meeting to another location but... I'm only the GR. I'm not the group. I have to stand behind what the group votes on.

Susan gave me a suggestion about a serene place to go. I can't tell you where she told me to go. But I will say that all roads seem to lead to the same place. I don't understand why things are happening as they are. I'm a little confused. I'm either going insane or I am really in tune with my Higher Power.

After I went to bed last night I had a series of strange dreams between trips to the bathroom. I remember one vividly because the same sort of suggestion that was given to me at the Al-Anon meeting came up. Everything leads to the same place.

Then I get up this morning and look at my perpetual calendar and it says:

"Where doors and hearts are open wide,
you're sure to find love and peace inside."

I know this to be true of my relationship with this family but I can't do this. I can't allow myself to get attached. I just can't go through another episode of being told that I imagined everything. I'm so confused! I argue with my Higher Power all the time. He's supposed to be all knowing. If I am actually in tune with my Higher Power then I am in big, big trouble. This seems to be a hopeless case to me.

On another note one of the job openings in this county is across the hall from the Al-Anon member who attended the meeting with me last night. Hey, I'd know two people at that school if I got it. So why does Minor Hill keep popping into my head?

We're in the final count down at school. Today is Lipsynch and an ice cream party this afternoon even though they don't deserve it. I'm very tired and ready for school to be out.