You know how you do things out of fear and then you regret it? I really, really regret having deleted my blog. It served as an outlet for my insane thinking and some pretty healthy things, too. Wish I had at least copied and pasted it into my computer journal.

The ism material is being worked on a little more thoroughly by myself and some others for a potential workshop. Don't know if it will get off the ground.

A lot of unhealthy things have transpired in the last two months. A lot of our isms are showing. I do a daily inventory to see which I'm experiencing.

Kind of tired. Had a lot hit me at once. Had a lot of depression. I'm told what I'm experiencing is normal. I'm feeling all my feelings and I'm allowing myself the luxury to grieve over some things. I hate being depressed. I grew up with the two extreme emotions- anger and depression. I understand anger better than I do depression.

Any way I may sneak back into this blog from time to time to let out some insanity. Missed my old buddy.