The walls are closing in on me. I feel smothered. I want my life back. I got Mom situated only to inherit Barry full time. I know, I know. His stuff will eventually even itself out and things will return to normal, whatever normal is, but I feel overwhelmed with all the "I need..." and "I want..." and "I feel like everyone's turned their back on me." Barry is overwhelmed and confused. I am reacting to him. On the one hand I want to help him but on the other I recognize that I am powerless and limited with what I can or should do. I just need to wait things out. I just feel so tired and I desperately need a break. I'm thinking of going to visit Linda next weekend but if I had someone to do something with close by I'd jump through hoops to have some time away from all of this. I need a distraction for just a few hours. It's beginning to get me down. My medication isn't holding back the depression.