Change, while sometimes frightening, is a necessary part of existence. Life without change would hold little opportunity for growth.

These are the words on my perpetual calendar this morning. Even before Obama used the phrase about change I said there was change coming. I was referring to my personal family situation. And I was right. Little did I know that our changes would call for us to transform or evolve. Sometimes I wish we could just rest on our laurels but we'd have no opportunity for growth.

Change

As sung by Tracy Chapman

If you knew that you would die today,
Saw the face of God and love,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that love can break your heart
When you're down so low you cannot fall
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses? How much regret?
What chain reaction would cause an effect?
Makes you turn around,
Makes you try to explain,
Makes you forgive and forget,
Makes you change?
Makes you change?

If you knew that you would be alone,
Knowing right, being wrong,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would find a truth
That brings up pain that can't be soothed
Would you change?
Would you change?

How bad, how good does it need to get?
How many losses? How much regret?
What chain reaction would cause an effect?
Makes you turn around,
Makes you try to explain,
Makes you forgive and forget,
Makes you change?
Makes you change?

Are you so upright you can't be bent?
If it comes to blows are you so sure you won't be crawling?
If not for the good, why risk falling?
Why risk falling?

If everything you think you know,
Makes your life unbearable,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you'd broken every rule and vow,
And hard times come to bring you down,
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you knew that you would die today,
If you saw the face of God and love,
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?
Would you change?

If you saw the face of God and love
If you saw the face of God and love
Would you change?
Would you change?


The place in Lebanon looks good. Barry and I went up to look around today. He willing signed papers for me to be his power of attorney. It looks like he could be moving at the end of this month.

I shared all of this with various people. Most were glad to hear this but Aunt Nelle did it again. She took something good and made it sound so, I don't know, like I hadn't done anything at all these last nine months. Each time I talk to her I feel so inferior. I've decided it's best I don't talk to her at all. I give up. This was one of the topics that Barry and I talked about on the way home. It seems to have come full circle. I am not inferior to anybody. I was made to be different from others. And I am.

I've got options for myself it seems. Listening to Linda name all of my options off to me didn't make me feel any better. It kind of made me sad. As I told Barry about his own situation, God will direct our path. None of us know where we might end up but to pass on opportunities would be like saying, "no" to God.

I ran into Sam before we left town. He's okay. I totally get him. He needs a friend and, right about now, so do I.