I let the fur fly last night. I finally told Mom and Barry how much they were taking advantage of me and taking me for granted. It was an eye opener for them both. I feel much better. Neither of them could understand why I was angry. But it doesn't matter. I got my feelings out there rather than repressing them.

I'm Moving On

As sung by Rascal Flatts

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on



I was thinking this afternoon about something I was told by two different recovery people. It's about the projects that I do. Each of them told me that they felt I did these things so that I didn't have to deal with myself. That's far from the truth. These projects are actually inventories for me. I exorcise demons and develop my assets. My latest project is the WWI book I did for the bicentennial. Now I'm working on an article about one of the WWI vets and I have offered to help with a piece on the WWII vets that are still living. I can't begin to tell you how therapuetic this is for me. It actually keeps me from doing bodily harm to my brother because I can tune him out and refocus.