Sometimes I miss having someone to talk to around here. I feel like too much is expected of me a lot of the time. I don't have the tools to do all the things that people want me to do. It makes me feel resentful and helpless when all these expectations are placed on me.

I'll be leaving in a little over an hour to go to the Sleep Technology Clinic. I'm actually grateful to be going for two reasons. First, maybe I'll finally get a new bi-pap machine and maybe a better diagnosis about what is wrong with me. I don't think it's just sleep apnea any more. Second, it will be a night away from here and a whole night to sleep in a bed rather than on a couch.

I feel like my family has taken over my life again. I really need for Mom to go to assistive living so that I can have my own life back. I also need to find out what other services Barry qualifies for because I can't be all things to him.