Prayer by Thomas Merton

My Lord God
I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself,
and the fact that I think I am following
your will does not mean
that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that my desire to please you
does in fact please you.
And I hope that I have that desire
in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything
apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this
you will lead me by the right road
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore will I trust you always
though I may seem to be lost
and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear,
for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me
to face my perils alone.



My old pal Thomas. I came across this today when I was searching for something else. It spoke to me and I decided to adopt this prayer for myself.

Went to see Dr. Brann today. Good visit. I'm to begin taking progestrone so that I may have a period again. Yuck! I could definitely do without those. He's talking about pregnancy again. I had to laugh at him when he wanted to do a urine test to see if I was pregnant or not. I haven't had sex since my divorce 4 years ago unless you count what I do in my thoughts.

I have an appointment with my therapist and the podiatrist again next Tuesday. I've got to schedule a mammogram soon, too. Then next month comes the barriatric appointment. Hopefully I'm on the right track to becoming healthier.