It's Not Easy to Be Me

As sung by David Gray

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird…I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

I wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'bout a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd…but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away…away from me
Well it’s all right…
You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
inside of me ...... inside of me ...(x2)

I’m only a man in a funny red sheet
I’m only a man looking for a dream


I’m only a man in a funny red sheet

It’s not easy ... wu.. hoo.. hoo..
It’s not easy to be me...

Little did I know when I heard this song this morning that it was going to be my theme for the day. I got called on the carpet for disciplining Taylor. I know that I went about it the wrong way but there is only so much I can do. These assistants (mostly Jennifer) have looked at me all year as one who could fix these kids and I just don't have the magic powers to do it. I got frustrated in trying to gain some control over her and I did the wrong thing for the right reason.

Then came the paper work for Lakale's meeting. I was missing a few things but I scrambled around to get them done. When the meeting came we were under a tornado warning. The meeting was postponed until next week. Thankfully his mother does not hold me accountable for the weather. But an assistant got her worried when she came looking for Lakale. He was safe and sound the entire time. He was getting his hearing and vision tested with Mrs. Jackson. But when mom got worried she went in search of him and that set him off. He went into total melt down. I don't blame the assistant but I think in this case out of line. Lakale has an assistant who is more than capable of keeping up with him.

I feel like Alice in Wonderland. These people aren't real. I can't get over the unprofessional attitude these people take. But then maybe I'm overly cautious because I've been on the losing end before. I am extremely skittish around people who do not take their jobs seriously. Kim's got to go and Jennifer will have to travel some next year. I will not put it all off on Stephanie.

Sweet Gypsy Rose, I need a meeting! Too bad there isn't a healthy one near me that I can get to.