If you love something
Set it free.
If it comes back to you
It's yours.
If it doesn't
It never was.

My cat, Cocoa, was missing for two days. I was a little concerned but I knew that she'd turn up eventually and if she didn't, well, it meant that she'd gone on to a better place.

I used to worry over little things like my cat missing from the apartment. Now days I remember Who created my cat, me, other people, the world- and I think that He can take care of my small cat. I let go of her and let God take care of her. I think that's what I've been doing with friends and family the past six or seven months.

Some friendships confuse me. I'm told in my CAL that confusion is a gift of God. I'm not sure why it would be considered a gift except that it makes you pause and think, to reason things out, to pray and meditate.

I explained to my friend Mike that Linda and I great each other with the nickname "Sunshine" and told him that I really didn't know his nickname. I asked if he wanted me to invent one for him. He totally surprised me by saying, "yes." At first I kind of clowned around and told him I'd call him "dahling" but they I told him that I generally refer to him as "The Paradox" only I misspelled it. He totally took me by surprise again when he liked the nickname. When I corrected my spelling of the word paradox from pardox to the correct spelling, he asked if we could keep the misspelled version because it seemed more personal. I have no problem with that. I try not to analyze such things because I'm generally way off base when I come up with a reason behind other people's behavior. In the past he told me I assumed too much. So, these days I just accept that he just wants to be my friend and I am grateful. But I am a little confused about why I react to him the way that I do.

I'm working on some new research for my job. I'm determined to bring this county into the 21st century!