Who am I?

The perpetual calendar today addresses that question, or rather, it offers some advice on the subject.

Take some time to find out
who you really are.
Listen to your heart,
and then give thanks
for all there is to experience,
for all there is to learn.

I'll tell you one thing for certain. I'm glad I am where I am in life right now even with all the uncertainty. I would not go backwards to relive anything.

I have been watching and listening to the ladies that work in my classroom. I have nothing in common with any of them. I no longer have the chip on my shoulder that comes from having to prove myself. My record speaks for itself in Special Education. I do not have to prove that I know my stuff, my actions tell that for me as do the opinions of those who know me. I no longer feel the need to constantly correct people or to put on a show. I know that I have no control over anything but myself and these women still have this to learn.

One of my wheelchair students withdrew today. Her mother came in with such a long face that I knew that something was wrong. She looked as if she wanted to cry. She so wanted Samantha to stay in my care. She had battled for so long to get her transferred to my class while we were still in Maury County. I pointed out to her as she left that at least she was going back to a place that had equipment where I had not had any all year. She just shook her head and commented that equipment is nothing without a program. She hugged all of us and she was gone.

First I loose Q and now I've lost Sammy. I'll miss her almost as much as I miss him. But I have a feeling that this family will eventually return. Our paths did not cross by accident.