I'm supposed to be going out of town this weekend to an Al-Anon retreat. But for some reason unknown to me I don't feel like taking this trip now. I haven't made any preparation for it which is totally unlike me. I went to a lot of trouble to get Mickey and Alice to okay my attendence without any money exchanging hands. And suddenly it feels like the trip is no longer necessary. But then I have that same feeling about house keeping. I feel like my medication alters how I look at things. That slogan, "How important is it?" seems to be a reality for me. I no longer stress over things as much as I used to. I really do "Let Go and Let God".

I've been thinking about this whole deal with Kenny. It bothers me that anyone would trash him the way that member did. I do not know him personally. We've never met face to face but he has helped me so much in my journey. He has taught me what true acceptance is. He seems to be very kind and gentle. I can't imagine him doing anything to harm anyone even verbally. I e-mailed one of the moderators about the matter because it seemed totally uncalled for to have one member trash another member on-line. I feel like I should jump to his defense even though he has not defended himself. I haven't received a response yet. I discussed the issue with my sponsor and a few e-mail buddies. The "spamming" that the member talked about doesn't seem to be so bad to each of us but we really aren't sure what she is referring to.