Anyway

as sung by Martina McBride
loosely based on the poem of the same name

You can spend your whole life building
Something from nothin'
One storm can come and blow it all away
Build it anyway

You can chase a dream that seems so out of reach
And you know it might not ever come your way
Dream it anyway

God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
When I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
I do it anyway

This world's gone crazy and it's hard to believe
That tomorrow will be better than today
Believe it anyway

You can love someone with all your heart
For all the right reasons
In a moment they can choose to walk away
Love 'em anyway

God is great, but sometimes life ain't good
When I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should
But I do it anyway
Yeah, I do it anyway

You can pour your soul out singing a song you believe in
That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang
Sing it anyway
Yeah, sing it anyway

I sing, I dream
I love
Anyway



Well, I quit my job. I discovered that I no longer had the gift to work with the special needs population. It's official I'm not just burned out on teaching, I'm burned out on working with that whole population of individuals. I think it's because I'm surrounded by mental illness and mental retardation in my personal circle. Perhaps if I wasn't I could still work with special needs. I hate that I can't. Teaching was my first love.

I need a job. I want a job. But I can't do a job at the expense of my emotional and mental stability. I'm blessed to have had a 401K that I could cash in. It wasn't much but I can live off of it until another job opportunity comes along. Until one does come along I'm still pursuing my master's online with APU. I'm almost finished with it actually. I just have three courses and an internship to go. To get a local internship I may have to transfer to MTSU, but that's not something I have to worry about right this minure.

Oh, I included the song lyrics because the poem popped into my head when I was working with a particularly irritating co-worker. I would have put the poem here but the song seemed more appropriate for how I'm feeling today.

I just finished reading Elizabeth Gilbert's EAT PRAY LOVE and Committed. I am gratefull for her penning the first book because I could so identify with the whole depression thing. I even take the same medication she did. A few years back I was on the enlightenment journey. I think maybe it's time to jump back on that trail. Oh, and as much as I like Julia Roberts, the movie based on the first book was horrible. Too many things were condensed or left out.