Loves Me Like a Rock

As sung by Paul Simon

When I was a little boy, (when I was just a boy)
And the devil would call my name (when I was just a boy)
I'd say now who do,
Who do you think you're fooling? (when I was just a boy)
I'm a consecrated boy (when I was just a boy)
I'm a singer in a Sunday choir
Oh , my mama loves, she loves me
She get down on her knees and hug me
Like she loves me like a rock
She rocks me like the rock of ages
And loves me
She love me, love me, love me, love me

When I was grown to be a man (grown to be a man)
And the devil would call my name (grown to be a man)
I'd say now who do,
Who do you think you're fooling? (grown to be a man)
I'm a consummated man (grown to be a man)
I can snatch a little purity
My mama loves me, she loves me
She get down on her knees and hug me
Like she loves me like a rock
She rocks me like the rock of ages
And loves me
She love me, love me, love me, love me

And if I was president (was the president)
The minute congress call my name (was the president)
I'd say who do,
Who do you think you're fooling? (who do you think youre fooling)
I've got the presidential seal (was the president)
I'm up on the presidential podium
My mama loves me
She loves me
She get down on her knees and hug me
Like she loves me like a rock
She rocks me like the rock of ages
And loves me

Fade out:
She love me, love me, love me, love me
(loves me like a rock)

I have no idea why this song popped into my head today but that line, "who do you think you're fooling" was what kept going through my mind. I was trying to wrap my head around why Beck was so off kilter today. She was, as Elyce puts it, "pressing" me into doing stuff. It was like her eye was totally focused on me. She kept plugging away with a sense of urgency. I felt cornered, hemmed in. I lost my serenity momentarily and then I remembered the Four Agreements that my sponsor gave me. One of them says, "What others do and say has nothing to do with you. What others say and do is them." So, I kind of backed off from how her behavior made me feel and I looked at the situation a little differently. She had asked to meet for lunch because she was out of sorts to begin. Then came the phone call about all the rain and the snake that got into the barn. Her sense of urgency had nothing whatsoever to do with me.

I believe she was trying to stuff whatever what bothering her by moving her focus from the real problem to me. Yes, I am not doing so well in the job hunting department, but I'm okay financially for now. All I have is now. I can't worry about tomorrow.

Yes, I keep hitting a brick wall with the newspaper. They have promised twice to put the add in the paper about the World War II book that I'm working on. But even that isn't an urgent endeavor. We do have surveys coming in from the vets.

From that she turned to Al-Anon and wanting to get the word out that we exist. She wants to see more people in the meeting. People come and go. It's the ebb and flow of recovery. It's not something we have control over. Besides, I learned my lesson about public relations a few years back. All you can do is post flyers. You can't go beat the bushes to solicit members. It doesn't work that way. At any rate I hope she eventually calms down. If not, the meeting Monday night will be one hell of a lulu.