Invisible

As sung by Jennifer Hudson

Seems like I’m not here
It’s like I don’t mean nothing
Like glass unclear
Almost like you can see straight through me
I got questions but no answers
So tired of being confused and I
Don’t wanna stay right here and I
Gotta find my wings and fly

Chorus
I gotta find me another way
Cause I don’t wanna stay another day
Time for a change in my mind
I’v opened my eyes I’m changing my life
And now I’m gonna live my life for me
Cause this aint how it’s supposed to be
No more standing in the back of the line
Cause I’m invisible for the last time

Why can’t you see me
Do I really even matter
You changed me completely
And I remember how it used to be
I got question what’s the lesson
I’m tired of being confused and I’m
I’m gonna take my chance and fly
I’m taking back my life

Chorus

This can’t be it for me
This can’t be all I’m made for
And all my time wasted in this life
It’s my time to shine
No more feeling insufficient
I’m gonna make my own decisions
It don’t matter what you can or cannot see
I’m doing this for me

Chorus

Can you see me
I know you see me
No more stand in the back of the line
Cause I’m invisible for the last time


I was watching the latest episode of Taking the Stage on MTV and this was the song that Malik sang for the Carnagie Hall show.

It's so interesting that I should see this episode right at the moment that I did. I had a very trying day with the adults in my classroom today. One of them has a husband that works as a computer tech for the school system. He came in spouting off about something that had been downloaded to the newest computer and it sounded like I was being accused of doing it. I had no idea what he was talking about. When he checked the date and the time he asked me where I was when the download occurred. I was in a Special Ed meeting at Central Office. I was nowhere near my classroom when it occurred and I have no idea who did this. The sub for that day was subbing for Teresa today and I have a room full of special education teachers who can vouch for me. He proceeds to talk down to me about taking command of my classroom and its machines. Fine. Whatever. I feel like reacting and blowing up or being petty about this. It's hard to hold my tongue and let it slide. I just remind myself that the year is almost over. I can and will live through this.

I will begin cleaning and rearranging things tomorrow. Right now I just want to veg out. I have felt invisible and stepped over. I'm sick of it. I'll be glad when everything is over. I'll work my aggression out by moving furniture and cleaning.