I'm feeling pretty good about myself this morning. I worked for a while at cleaning and rearranging the spare room. It took a while to untangle all of the computer and telephone cords but I did it.

The computer now sits in front of the window. It's amazing how just moving the computer from one wall to the other changes the scenery and the mood. Yesterday my cat and I watched the birds playing in the trees. This morning I see the cloudy sky and the threat of more rain. Rain could dampen my mood but I am still serene.

I've just read my Awakenings mail. I was thinking about what one of the women wrote about listening to someone share their fifth step with her while she drove in traffic. I listened to someone share their fifth step with me while I was in the midst of all that depression 2 years ago. I was suicidal and managed to take my focus off of myself so that I could listen to Elyce. I was thinking about that and what happened at school on Friday. My thoughts went to, "How am I going to manage to survive to the end of school?" That's when it occurred to me- I survived listening to a fifth step confession while amid terrible depression and I survived the horrible things that my ex said to me while he was under the influence. If I can survive those things then I can survive all that is thrown at me for four weeks. I can do this. I am ever so grateful that I have the Awakenings group.