Apparently I have the plague. I am feeling a little rejected right now. You know how you walk in a room and the atmosphere seems to change? It's been happening a lot lately. If I knew what I'd done wrong I could make amends or if I knew what to say to make things better I would. It's kind of weird to know that I have no control. In some ways it's very liberating and in other ways it is very frustrating.

I've been called a liar a few times in an under handed way lately. I tell a doctor that I am a diabetic but that I do not take medication and they doubt my word. Why would I make something like that up? I have never been one to like going to the doctor and I certainly shy away from extra attention.

I've got the most expensive glasses known to man coming to me in the next few weeks. The price of them is more than my truck payment and rent combined. I almost swallowed my teeth when I heard the price. I guess my eyesight has gotten that bad. I had four kinds of drops put in my eyes yesterday afternoon and they were still sort of dilated this morning when I got up. I was sent to another eye doctor today to get the tension test done because she didn't like the readings she got yesterday. The test today consisted of them numbing my eyes and putting an electronic pen to them. It didn't hurt but it felt weird for someone to be probing around my eyes.

I guess I'll be concentrating on my projects the next few weeks to help keep me grounded. But I've got to tell you that the Lithium has helped a lot. I'm better able to focus. I still get bent out of shape when I view myself being mistreated but as I know there is nothing I can do about it, I'm better able to let it go. I am the Rodney Dangerfield of Southside Elementary.