I just got finished watching the movie Martian Child. If you haven't seen it I highly recommend it. It reminded me a little of August Rush, another movie I think everyone should see.

There were some really good lines in Martian Child. The one that stands out most in my mind is when John Cusack's character was asked, "Why can't you just be what we want you to be?" Isn't that the question that some of us hear quite frequently? What they really mean is "Why do you have to be you? Why can't you be someone else? Because who you are isn't good enough." I grew up around people like that. Like the Martian Child I tried to fit in. Tonight I realized I'm not supposed to.

I talked to my mother this afternoon. She told me about my brother crying at church last night because he thought his ride had gone off and left him. I really wish we could convince Barry to attend church elsewhere. These people, try as they might, just don't get my mother, brother or me. They want to change the way they live. I know Mom's made some blunders over time but their conditions are far from subpar. It's just a matter of her eyesight being so poor and he doesn't know how to do certain things. But truthfully, I handicapped them by doing things for them. I spoiled them and when I could no longer do it or was told to drop the rope, everyone was unprepared for the results.

I love my mother and brother. I really do. They're all I have. But I had to drop the rope a while back because I was spinning out of control. All this control stuff we go through only makes us more out of control. I learned the hard way.

I identify with the Martian Child and August Rush because they think outside the box. They are real to me even though they are characters in movies because I know how they feel.

I had a really weird thought as the movie ended. What if all of us out here who walk a different path are the normal ones and all these other people aren't? Who's to say what the truth is? Truth is relative. You know what I mean?

Just needed to reach out and share that with someone, anyone. I get a little tired of my own company and my own thoughts. Sometimes I need a friend to bounce things off of without judgment. I kind of think that was the point of the whole movie.