This morning I'm going to pick up my mother from assisted living. We're going to the Leg Up Picnic. Becky has put a lot of hard work into this and I'm going to support my newest sister. If we have time we may also swing by the Rec Center to see the karate exhibition that Darcy is in. It's an action packed weekend it seems.

I did not go get Barry and he stopped calling. It felt like a huge weight was lifted off of my chest and shoulders. Suddenly I wasn't in as much pain and I felt free.

The landlord came by yesterday. They had to bug bomb Barry's apartment yet again. He gave me some Combat cream or whatever. I've put it in most of the spots where I've seen my inherited roaches. I can't reach some of the spots. I showed him that I had condensed Barry's apartment down to 6 tubs and two garbage bags. Philip, Charlotte and I trashed a lot of stuff that Barry had collected over the years. I can't believe the stuff he hung onto. It makes me want to go through my own apartment and trash stuff. I've done this over the years. But I think I might be able to do a little bit more, especially since I've now brought home what was mine from the classroom.

It was nice to receive a hug from Sam yesterday but somehow it didn't seem to mean so much to me. It does not compare to the hug I got from the Paradox on Sunday. What do I do with Mike? Sometimes I think I've got an inkling to what he's all about and at other times I'm not so sure. So, I just let it go. I figure if I am of any importance to anyone, including him, I'll know. It sort of reminds me of the movie I watched last night- Pride and Prejudice. There's something in the facial expressions that remind me of Mike. He wears his thoughts and feelings on his face much like the actors did in the movie. And yet, maybe I do not interpret them correctly. All I know is that I almost walked right by him without seeing him on Sunday. I was that intent in the argument that I was having with Linda about where we were going to sit. She walked me right in the line of fire with Ann, one of the people I wanted to avoid. If Mike had not said my nickname I don't know if I'd have seen him at all. How is that possible?

I'm grateful that it is now summer and school is out. I'm also grateful to have a paycheck through the summer. I don't have to have a summer job and that is a blessing. It leaves me with the opportunity to get to much needed doctor appointments and to look for a job.