God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.

I've got problems. I accept my problems. I know that some of them are beyond my control. Others are things that I can work on a little at a time.

Major problem right now is the pain in my back and left leg. I go to see a specialist on Thursday. I wish I had someone else to do the driving. I hope to find out that there is something that I can do about the pain. It hurts to sit, stand, walk and lie down.

Other problem involves finances. In trying to "help" my mother and brother I've once again hurt myself. Rent is due. No money left. Mom's check going through my account and all the other things that were tied to my brother's stuff cost me roughly $800. I am broke. My only hope is to write the landlord a check for two months rent and ask him not to cash it until February 13th. We'll see what happens. I really don't know what else I can do. Their payee owes me some major money out of their accounts but I'm not sure that either of them are caught up on their bills. I will be the last to receive reimbursement because I am family.